What is worst than everyone else's standards is your own.
I've seen it with so many people (friends or not.)
And figures, I am one too.
Besides all the calculus that I am learning 6 hours a day, I have never been so aware of my own set of standards, especially when it comes to the grades-department (I mean, I am a student, what else can I muse about aside from all that gay men?)
I have always had my own standards, if it isn't a 90 then it is a 80 at the very least. (Overachiever? In comparison, not at all... but I try?) It is not an achievement but more like an expectation I have for myself. And years of receiving grades like these, when I do fall short of my own expectations, satisfaction unexpectedly comes for me. (What can I say? I can hardly think straight these days...)
Because I finally notice that it becomes an achievement, something that you can actually appreciate, when I am finally aware of the efforts I put into it (even though it is not remotely comparable to my usual grades.)
The process is not fun, the payoff is not all that great either but I think I have never felt this happy seeing my own accomplishments. Unexpected things really can put a smile on my face :)
Ranty!Kuro blames the math, it makes her go insane. ;)
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*hugs* :D Well I wasn't too keen on my grades during school, but I'm adamant on having at least an 80 on subjects I like. Now that I'm in uni studying arts, grades totally doesn't matter to me, other than personal satisfaction with my own artwork, which sadly, isn't really satisfying right now. BUT! I'll work harder and stop reading manga from now on! (What a pack of lies...)
XDDDDDD Those lies are also applicable to me. I keep saying I will stay away but then I am checking out whats new again... DD: Right now I couldn't care about marks, I just want it to end!! Argh! D:
Hang in there D: It's your last week of summer school right?
Just two more days!! (And two more exams!!) DD':
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