ring, ring

I don't like hearing my phone ring.

And leaving voice mails turns me into a nervous ball of nerves.


It's not like I hate it when people call me for casual things.

I prefer speaking to people face to face, I like the interaction. I don't like being blinded to their expressions, to their reactions. Because I have the worst hearing-reception, and by that I mean I have a very hard time tuning in to anyone's channel and you would have a much greater chance of talking at me than to me (it's really nothing personal, I am just a much more visual person than auditory).

There is just something missing in a phone call that makes it hard for me to, and idek how to put this aside from, respond. And I don't want to sound like I don't care but I can't say what my facial expression is saying and it all just goes downhill from there on.

And don't let me start on 'serious' phone calls, like phone interviews/ booking appointments/ etc., because I get all intimidated and basically turn into a nervous wreck and babble to no end.


PS: Ironically, writing an essay about the writing process is giving me a writer's block. Quick 3am noodle break later and I will head into the final editing stage. God, I just want to write some hardcore pwps or abstract to wtf-am-I-reading fics just to flip the bird at my English professor with his high and all mighty this-is-how-you-write-properly-and-at-the-same-time-you-need-to-write-out-of-the-box lectures.