eight years is a long time to be anywhere

entering into the fourth month on the job and it doesn't feel stressful but my hands have been breaking out in this sudden skin condition and i am really doubting it has anything to do with the weather or any skin allergies at this point. but it feels ridiculous to blame it on the stress when i don't take anything home from the job and get weekends off??

(a vague dream about work does make me skeptical though) and so does crashing at almost every fucking night but i assume i am just weak like that.

but i really can't complain because i have work, the pay really isn't bad at all, the verbal abuse from the patients can really take a big fucking step back because if this is how you treat your medical admins, i don't want to know how you treat your waitresses and waiters.

and i always, always have the fam at my back.


i just remember this is my first post as 23. to think i have been writing this since 2008. it feels like i am talking into empty space and i really really like it. and i think that feeling never really went away for me.

this update sounds a little worrying now that i reread it but really, i am not in a bad place at all.