this is not the kind of positivity your boss tells you about

this is kinda stupid but life is too short not to do the little things that make you happy.

i will avoid that bothersome social event without guilt because i could be writing sad soft porn riddled with inappropriate feelings. i will go out for desserts and rant about being scared for my future and give my brain a break from imaging every bad outcome possible. i will reach out to the people i care about and offer that ear for them to talk to if they want it because life is too short not to be affected by good and bad emotions.

i didn't realize it's been so long since i dropped a word or two here. life has been a lot. life has been good and it has been upsetting at times. but it goes on, and i will too.