see you, not gonna miss you

okay. okay. okayyyyy.

guess who is the dumbfuck who somehow swindled her way into becoming a 911 operator.

my contract looks ridiculous because what the fuck is a hefty paycheck and benefits, my brain does not compute?? but it is official and i signed official documents and i am just in all states of surreal even though i was there through the entire process.



there is a possibility that i won't cut it, and there is a fair amount of worry there.

but like the motto i've adopted in my own life: fake it til you make it, and when you make it, keep on faking it because a real adult is the biggest myth if i've ever seen one. you won't figure everything out but you can figure out your next step one of these days.