INHALE

This last month and a half has not been kind to me.

Just a fuck ton of bad luck, stress, and conflicts still trying to work itself out.

I don't like myself all that much lately, wishing constantly that I could be smarter, better, and genuinely not me as I am. I am not happy with myself, and maybe I should give myself a break but maybe that is also just me taking it easy on myself and I don't think I deserve that one bit.

idk.

If there is a hole in the ground, I would crawl in it to get away for a bit.

(But seriously, if I don't have the family support that I do, I really don't know what I would do. Sometimes I just wish I could be better so I am not such a burden on everyone else. I want to be for them what they are for me.)